e.r.

okay, so i will try my hardest to eliminate any graphic imagery from this story.  which, i mind you, is difficult since the whole event was pretty disgusting.

so sunday, after helping safuego pick out flowers for her upcoming wedding, safuego and la actress, came back to my apt to see if we could actually put the centerpieces together ourselves. I made lunch, fresh green salad, romaine and spinach, corn, tomatoes...and a frozen baked pizza.

we watched some tv and then the girls went home.  pickle ate our leftovers, and then it started.

4:45 migraine

5:15 stomach pains

5:45 nausea and vomiting starts and continues every 25-30 min for the next 7 hours

9:00 get to ER,
so embarrassing, after checking in, i look for some where to sit and nobody will let me sit near them- probably because i looked like death and was carrying a large green bucket to throw up in, but still.... people suck.   so i finally find a place to sit, and precede to my bucket to... you know.

9:15 i go back to get a pee test and blood drawn, while a poor nurse named allison took my blood, i continued to..... you know.  while my wonderful boyfriend held my bucket.  after this, they told me i had to go back to the very crowded waiting area, but since i felt a rumble in the deepest part of my stomach, i knew that i did not want to be that far from a bathroom, so i refused.  i asked pickle to get me a diaper, (which they should really make in smaller sizes, the diaper came half way up my stomach, out my skinny jeans)   i looked so pathetic. (i also want to add,  that i didn't need my diaper, {it was precautionary})

9:30-11:30  i laid a towel down on the floor next to a chair for pickle to sit in, (near a bathroom, in the triage area), and curled up in the fetal position on it.

11:30 an angel of a male nurse brought me a stretcher to lie on and a couple warm blankets since i was shivering.  (yep i was shivering wearing two sweaters of mine and using pickles huge one as a blanket, i know i am overly dramatic but i felt like i was going to die.)  of course moving into the stretcher made me have to ....you know some more.

1:30 am  a wonderfully cute/young/ the girl version of doogey howser m.d., came to check me out, she gave me two bags of saline, poked and prodded all my organs to make sure i didn't have appendicitis, pancreatitis, or any ---itis.

1:45 am as soon as the saline drip had time to work, i started to come back to life.  but weird, as the saline goes in, you become ice cold from the inside out.  i'm sure anyone who has had an iv knows the feeling, it sucks.

3:00 am pickle gets me home and to bed.

5:00 am i wake up, because you know why.

......and finally the demon is out of me.

it is now wed. and i am just now eating normal meals and feeling normal.  wow, worst sickness i have ever had: fastest progressing, most dehydrating, grossest, most cholera-like poisoning ever.... and......i did it to myself.

so glad my friends and pickle didn't get sick.  man, do i love my boyfriend and my dog who took such good care of me, they are the best.

and the culprit,  i blame the spinach. Because fairly recently (6-8 mo's ago)  in so cal there was a salmonella/spinach scare. never again will i eat uncooked spinach, but in the fight of salmonella vs kim montoya, i think i should call it a tie.

cell phone cameras, who do they think they are?

wow, i'm impressed.  uno took these pictures with her phone. here is a panoramic of the lake i live near, and at the right edge gus walking with me.  and here i am right after giving gus a treat for coming when i called him.  he has finally learned rollover and what a proud parent i am.

man morsel monday (a day late)

whose looking forward to the world cup now, huh?  this girl, that's who.  i am so glad that vf put landon donovan on the spread. (he should've gotten the cover- or at least his own centerfold, but someday I will be rich, i will buy vf and make them carry out my biding.)

a little monday positivity

to those of you who have work today, breath deeply once, and think of something you can do today that isn't your job.  i'll tell you, on the worst of days, it always made me feel better, to take a longer lunch, clip my fingernails, get a pedicure, haircut, pick up dry cleaning, exc.... all on the company dime.   you should officially make today time theft monday.  

as for me, i don't have work today.  i am in the purgatory between jobs, where it is amazing to have all the free time you could ever want, but no money to do anything.  so,  i think i will take gus to the beach today and take some pictures with my diana.

polaroid beach, polaroid bar

love the 80's feel.

so the reason these pictures look different. my scanner likes to f%%% with me and keep me on my toes. It took me a few attempts and at least an hour of my life to be disappointed over and over again with its lack of consistency. anyway, this will remain the final product. and i will keep this in mind when i decide which camera to take out with me, the diana (an expensive, unpredictable, old bitch), the polaroid (artsy arse doesn't get along with scanner) or my new Lumix SLR (digital freedom- which i lost the cable to).

some explanation of pictures;

pickle and i at mission beach- yes i know that pink hat it awesome.

enchilada night- (haven't had successful enchiladas since)---pickle holding lil gus as he stares lovingly at the food. next to them is my sister, (we will call her uno, for reaons she understands, not that it matters, since i am pretty sure i am the only one reading this.) which makes me wonder why i correct my spelling mistakes. no more-- i want to embrace spelling errors.

d & b- (sister dos) and her man (sheriff woody) i guess nicknames are useless here, since their names are written on the polaroid. unless.... i put the wrong names on the photo to fool you. anyway, the purpose of this photo, comemorate the night they engaged with one another. (yea, i know, but i like how it sounds)

beach again- pickle's brother and wife with him, also- you can't see it, but there might be a tiny lil fetus in this picture. we found out recently that there is a bun in the oven.

because i am in between jobs for the next couple weeks i hope i have time to spill out more of my sardonic genius onto this page.

a new philosophy

mnmlist : less




Stop buying unnecessary things.

Toss half your stuff, learn contentedness.

Reduce half again.

List 4 essential things in your life,

stop doing non-essential things.

Do these essentials first each day, clear distractions

focus on each moment.

Let go of attachment to doing, having more.

Fall in love with less.

little gus gus, light of my life

feb. 26th pickle and i adopted a puppy. 4 months old, he started life a bit rough with parvo, uri, sarcoptic mange, and giardia. thank goodness for stacy, bruce and dawn at the barking lot foundation who saved him from being put to sleep at the la county shelter. stacy, had him running in her pack, in no time. i am so happy that there are people like her and that she was willing to take a chance on me and pickle, (who have never taken care of dog ourselves). we love him to pieces. he was potty trained after 2 days in our apt. and to be fair the 2nd day was pouring rain outside. he already knows sit. he loves his toy frog and stealing his cousin jack's toys. his favorite snack is peanut butter and those chicken jerky strips make his belly hurt (no more of those).

pickle and i gave him his first bath since we've had him the other day and he took it very well, he liked the bath, but the blow dryer noise scared him a little. after the doggy street festival were pickle and i volunteered, gus demonstrated some barking and growling that he had learned from the big dogs. pickle and me were not impressed (even though it is kinda funny). but he is still learning. we discovered a baseball field near our apt and gus loves going there to chase the ball and frisbee.

i feel like a whole world has opened up to me, full of dog lovers, dog stories, dog stores, dog food, dog toys, dog everything. it is very fun. but most of all i love when he comes up and licks my face and lays down in my lap. my social life is pretty much down to zero, because i only want to be with him, and only want to go places he can go. sorry friends, mommyhood is rough.

master's degree in something useful that can get me a decent paying job, hopefully

cold rainy winter days like this make me want to move to mexico. but at least it gives me time to write about the beginning of my latest academic adventure. on feb. 16th i received an email from sdsu informing me of their decision to admit me into the mba program of the college of business administration. excited, yes....scared, yes! the letter informed me in kind language that because of my creative background i may want to brush up on some real material. i was assigned statistics, economics, and managerial and financial accounting texts to review before my program starts in the fall. i have yet to get them.


i feel that i really want to succeed this time, not just get the degree but make valuable connections, network, and graduate at the top of my class. of course, we all start out with the best of intentions. we will see where i am come december????

in other news. bought a polaroid camera, and $100 worth of film. first pack, fail. on second pack...pictures to come.

ideas/goals/objectives

well this list is embarrassing. here are some things i would like to learn. yes some things on the list i maybe too old for, too young for, too busy for, too lazy for, too slow for, too untalented for. (i couldn't figure out how to write that grammatically correct--grammar fail)

photography
cooking
knitting
guitar
calligraphy
driving stick
surfing
spanish
paddle boarding
rock climbing
hiking
skateboarding
yoga



this is a photo composition from an art gallery i used to work at. (i use the word work loosely.) the artist is adam lewis smith, despite me thinking of him as a mediocre person (to be fair, who isn't though), some of his compositions are exceptional. this one i like very much.

potato, onion, veggie burger love

needed to feed me and pickle and have pretty close to no food in the apt. this was simple and delicious.

4 small russett potatoes (thinly sliced)
.5 white onion
pinch of cayenne pepper
vegetable oil (don't be stingy)
1 tsp of minced garlic
salt and pepper (shoop, shoop ba doop)

veggie patty (defrosted- cut up and added at end)
4 big flour tortillas

i put all top ingredients in skillet and cooked on high heat for about 12 min. put veggie burger for about a minute. served on warmed up tortillas with tapatio and ketchup.

so so so good. but,

when i do it all over again, i will put the onion in a few minutes after the potatoes.